So Eden Sank To Grief

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Nature’s first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf’s a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

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Kiss Me Goodbye, I’m Defying Gravity!

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I’m through with playing by
The rules of someone else’s game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It’s time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes, and leap…

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Sing to Me the Song of the Stars…

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There’s a song that’s inside of my soul.
It’s the one that I’ve tried to write
over and over again.
I’m awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over
and over and over again…

Five-hundred-and-three days.

Thirteen hours.

Twenty-seven minutes.

Sixteen seconds.

At first, she hadn’t kept track. The knowledge that he’d be back in her arms was enough. The occasional phone call or letter in the mail sent her heart fluttering, and she knew. She knew that in time, he’d be back. There was no need.

But then the calls stopped.

She had just arrived home from work, had barely enough time to remove her shoes at the door before the car pulled into the driveway. At first, she didn’t realize what it was. At first, she didn’t understand that it was “the car.”

Two men clad in blue exited the vehicle.

It was just after five o’clock on a Tuesday when her world came to a screeching halt.

Five-hundred-and-twenty-three days ago.

Thirteen hours.

Twenty-seven minutes.

Fifty-one… Fifty-two… Fifty-three…

[Shape][Mine]
[Head][Lelutka][Stella Mesh Head (v1.6)]
[Skin][Glam Affair][Alyx (America)]
[Body][Slink][Slink Physique (v2.8)]
[Eyes][IKON][Triumph Eyes (Evening)]
[Hands][Slink][AvEnhance Hands (Casual)]
[Hair][TRUTH Hair][Louisa (Gingers)]
[Tattoo][White Widow][Moonlight (Black)]
[Dress][Zanze @ .PENUMBRA AW16 FW][Cassie Dress (Black)]
[Pose][Female 07 Pose from Gracefully Wicked “Starlight Bed”]
[Location][La Vie Sim]
[Inspiration Tune][Mandy Moore – Only Hope]

Songs I Can’t Listen To…

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Do you still sing alone
When you’re all by yourself?
Or do you switch to the next one
Sing for somebody else?
When you’re cold don’t forget
How this song kept us warm
You would dance on my bed
I would lay in your arms…

 

He left everything behind when he left her. It wasn’t that he was gone, perhaps because he wasn’t gone at all. It was everything. She could see him and feel him everywhere. The coat he left in the closet that still smelled of him, especially on cold days… His pillow, still laying untouched beside her own. Every nook and cranny, every shadow, every song that played on the radio was a reminder to her that he had been there once.

He had been there, with a smile brighter than the sun and arms so strong that she always felt safe, warm, and protected. He had been there to celebrate her victories and wipe away her tears.

She’d stopped listening long ago, afraid that one of those songs would play, and her resolve would crack, and the rest off the world would be able to see that she wasn’t as together as she liked to pretend that she was.

She’d never missed anything so much.

Sometimes, if she listened hard enough, she could still hear his voice, softer than a whisper, but as clear as though he was standing right behind her with his lips pressed to her ear.

“Don’t worry,” he’d always say, “I’ll see you again soon.”

 

[Shape][Mine]
[Head][Lelutka][Stella Mesh Head (v1.6)]
[Skin][((=alterego=)) @ .PENUMBRA AW16 FW][Runa (Chai)]
[Body][Slink][Slink Physique (v2.8)]
[Eyes][IKON][Triumph Eyes (Evening)]
[Hands][Slink][AvEnhance Hands (Casual)]
[Hair][*Argrace*][Azami (Light Brown)]
[Outfit][PRISM @ .PENUMBRA AW16 FW][Andi Warm Flannels Set by Journey (w/HUD)]
[Shoes][Glam Affair @ UBER][Marshall Peeptoe Ankle Boots (Harbor Blue)]
[Pose][Del May][Hand Kiss]
[Location][Paris Je T’aime Sim]
[Inspiration Tune][Neon Trees – Songs I Can’t Listen To]

I Would Have Stayed Up With You All Night…

 

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He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left, and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came..

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There had been many late nights like this one… Late nights that turned into early mornings fighting to stay awake, fighting the worry and the bile that threatened to choke her, and staring at the door, waiting. Lately, she felt as though she was always waiting. Waiting for him to come home. Waiting for everything to blow up in her face. Waiting for the bad news. Always waiting for the second shoe to drop, even though she’d lost the first one long ago.

The sun was peeking through the window this time before he stumbled in, undoubtedly the quietest way he knew how. It usually involved tripping over the rug, even though it hadn’t moved, nearly knocking their wedding portrait off of the wall, and then cursing loudly as he slammed the door. She’d seen the same scene so many times before that it played itself like a movie inside her head. She’d seen it so much before that this time, when the door swung open and he stood there silent, tears welling up in his eyes, she was actually taken aback for a moment before she could find her voice again.

“We… We need to talk.” She said. “Now.”

[Shape][Mine]
[Head][Lelutka][Stella Mesh Head (v1.6)]
[Skin][Glam Affair @  Collabor88][Debby Lelutka Applier (Asia)]
[Body][Slink][Slink Physique (v2.8)]
[Hands][Slink][AvEnhance Hands (Elegant)]
[Lips][Glam Affair @  Collabor88][Debby Lips (Lelutka Applier)]
[Hair][TRUTH][Priya (Ginger Pack)]
[Bracelets][[MANDALA]][Okaki Unisex Bracelets (Brown)]
[Hoodie Romper/Leggings][[Cynful] Clothing & C0.][Hoodie Romper]
[Boots][1NNOVAT1ION Design House][Chainless Boots]
[Bench][Kalopsia][Cozy Bench [PG]]
[Pose 1][from Kalopsia Cozy Bench [PG Version]][Single 3]
[Pose 2][created with Animare, modeled after DeePosed “Framed 22”]
[Location][West of the Rain Sim]
[Inspiration Tune][The Fray – How to Save a Life]

Let Go of All of Our Ghosts…

 

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I’ve given you up
I’ve forgiven it all.
You set me free.

Long ago, sometime between “It’s not you, it’s me,” and “Would you like to meet us for coffee?” she had forgiven him. She had taken a deep breath, turned her back, and walked away. No. Ran. It was hard, giving up what had been her first love…what her heart had convinced her would be the truest and deepest love that she would ever feel. She hadn’t fallen for him. It was more like a running leap off of a tall building, speeding toward the ground with no parachute and not even caring about what would happen when they reached the ground.

He was beautiful and brash and everything that she wasn’t. A smile took her breath away. His laugh was infectious. Everything about him seemed so damn perfect.

Until she realized that it wasn’t. That he wasn’t.

She sighed as she looked out the window, watching them leave. Her coffee still waited on the table, practically untouched throughout the duration of their impromtu get-together. He walked away with his fingers laced with his new lover’s, and she watched them and found herself smiling.

He wasn’t perfect. Not for her, but…

[Shape][Mine]
[Head][Lelutka][Stella Mesh Head (v1.6)]
[Skin][^^Swallow^^][Sabry (Peach) w/ Georgie Lelutka Applier]
[Body][Slink][Slink Physique (v2.8)]
[Hands][Slink][AvEnhance Hands (Elegant)]
[Eyes][IKON][Triumph Eyes (Evening)]
[Hair][TRUTH][Debra(Ginger Pack)]
[Sweater][Pixicat @ Collabor88][Fall Sweater (Cream)]
[Tights][Pixicat @ Collabor88][Fall Tights (Roses)]
[Shoes][F I N E S M I T H (closed)][Leprekon 1 Boots]
[Pose][{Rose & Thorn} Poses][Missing You]
[Location][Point Mirabeau Sim]
[Inspiration Tune][Adele – Send My Love (To Your New Lover)]

Eine Kleine Nachtmusik

 

 

Neither a lofty degree of intelligence, nor imagination,
nor both together
go to the making of genius.
Love, love, love-That is the soul of genius.
~Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart~

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It was just an ordinary day like any other that had come before it. The streets were crowded with people, each walking with their head down, each in a rush to get wherever they were going. Everyone was always in a rush it seemed, even when they had nowhere to be. She sighed, quiet enough not to disturb the strange silence as she made her way down the sidewalk carrying a large black case at her side. People didn’t notice, of course. No one stopped to notice anything anymore…but she aimed to change that.

She stopped in front of a small staircase leading to a neglected wooden door. The stone on the building was cracked, the paint peeling. It was an eyesore to some–an antique jewel amidst an ever-changing city that had been forgotten by time–and it was the perfect spot. She allowed a small smile to spread across her face as she looked at it, and then she sat her case down and ever-so-gently plucked her treasure from inside.

And then she played. She played as the sun sank below the horizon and the shadows swallowed her whole. She gave her serenade to the night, to anyone that would listen. Her eyes closed as her hand worked bow over string and sent music out into the busy streets. And for a moment, everything and everyone stopped to admire a beauty in the world that they had long since forgotten existed in the first place.

[Shape][Mine]
[Head][Lelutka][Stella Mesh Head (v1.6)]
[Skin][^^Swallow^^][Sabry (Peach) w/ Georgie Lelutka Applier]
[Body][Slink][Slink Physique (v2.8)]
[Hands][Slink][AvEnhance Hands (Elegant)]
[Feet][Slink][AvEnhance Feet (High)]
[Eyes][IKON][Triumph Eyes (Evening)]
[Lips][.JUMO.][Prestige Red]
[Hair][TRUTH][Priya (Ginger Pack)]
[Dress][Just Because][Giselle Gown (Green)]
[Chest Piece][.aisling.][Sofia Chestpiece]
[Bracelet][^^Swallow^^][Cuff Bracelet]
[Tattoo][White Widow][Legend Gacha (full – henna)]
[Pose][created with Animare, modeled after *PosESioN* Amour 10 Pose]
[Location][Point Mirabeau Sim]
[Inspiration Tune][Mozart – Eine Kleine Nachtmusik]