So Eden Sank To Grief

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Nature’s first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf’s a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

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To Try and Touch the Sun…

I’m standing out in the street
The earth is moving
I feel it under my feet
And I’m still proving
That I can stand my ground
And my feet are there
Having washed my hair
To be lost before you are found
Don’t mean you’re losing…

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Let the Waves Up and Take Me Down

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Where is the coast guard?
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
The jets; I’m sunk; I’m left behind
I’m treading for my life, believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing?)

She’d seen this before, she knew. She’d been here before. In this exact spot. For a moment, she wondered if she’d been thinking the same thing back then, whenever then was, as she staring down at her reflection in the water from the top of the cliffs. Had she been sad, then? Had the waves reached out and grabbed her to swallow her whole, or had she run into their open arms, a willing sacrifice to the night…to the sea?

[Head][Lelutka][Stella Mesh Head (v1.6)]
[Skin][Glam Affair][Alyx (America)]
[Body][Slink][Slink Physique (v2.8)]
[Eyes][IKON][Triumph Eyes (Evening)]
[Hands][Slink][AvEnhance Hands (Casual)]
[Hair][adoness @ [[Genre]]][Njord (Cappuccino)]
[Tattoo][White Widow][Nerve (Black)]
[Dress][The Sea Hole][Tentacle Dress (Deep Water)]
[Boots][Wicca’s Wardrobe @ [[Genre]]][Octopus Boots (Brown)]
[Location][The Gates of Melancholy Sim]
[Pose][Del May][Avalanche]
[Inspiration Tune][Blue October – Into the Ocean]

I Would Have Stayed Up With You All Night…


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He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left, and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came..

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There had been many late nights like this one… Late nights that turned into early mornings fighting to stay awake, fighting the worry and the bile that threatened to choke her, and staring at the door, waiting. Lately, she felt as though she was always waiting. Waiting for him to come home. Waiting for everything to blow up in her face. Waiting for the bad news. Always waiting for the second shoe to drop, even though she’d lost the first one long ago.

The sun was peeking through the window this time before he stumbled in, undoubtedly the quietest way he knew how. It usually involved tripping over the rug, even though it hadn’t moved, nearly knocking their wedding portrait off of the wall, and then cursing loudly as he slammed the door. She’d seen the same scene so many times before that it played itself like a movie inside her head. She’d seen it so much before that this time, when the door swung open and he stood there silent, tears welling up in his eyes, she was actually taken aback for a moment before she could find her voice again.

“We… We need to talk.” She said. “Now.”

[Head][Lelutka][Stella Mesh Head (v1.6)]
[Skin][Glam Affair @  Collabor88][Debby Lelutka Applier (Asia)]
[Body][Slink][Slink Physique (v2.8)]
[Hands][Slink][AvEnhance Hands (Elegant)]
[Lips][Glam Affair @  Collabor88][Debby Lips (Lelutka Applier)]
[Hair][TRUTH][Priya (Ginger Pack)]
[Bracelets][[MANDALA]][Okaki Unisex Bracelets (Brown)]
[Hoodie Romper/Leggings][[Cynful] Clothing & C0.][Hoodie Romper]
[Boots][1NNOVAT1ION Design House][Chainless Boots]
[Bench][Kalopsia][Cozy Bench [PG]]
[Pose 1][from Kalopsia Cozy Bench [PG Version]][Single 3]
[Pose 2][created with Animare, modeled after DeePosed “Framed 22”]
[Location][West of the Rain Sim]
[Inspiration Tune][The Fray – How to Save a Life]

Let Go of All of Our Ghosts…


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I’ve given you up
I’ve forgiven it all.
You set me free.

Long ago, sometime between “It’s not you, it’s me,” and “Would you like to meet us for coffee?” she had forgiven him. She had taken a deep breath, turned her back, and walked away. No. Ran. It was hard, giving up what had been her first love…what her heart had convinced her would be the truest and deepest love that she would ever feel. She hadn’t fallen for him. It was more like a running leap off of a tall building, speeding toward the ground with no parachute and not even caring about what would happen when they reached the ground.

He was beautiful and brash and everything that she wasn’t. A smile took her breath away. His laugh was infectious. Everything about him seemed so damn perfect.

Until she realized that it wasn’t. That he wasn’t.

She sighed as she looked out the window, watching them leave. Her coffee still waited on the table, practically untouched throughout the duration of their impromtu get-together. He walked away with his fingers laced with his new lover’s, and she watched them and found herself smiling.

He wasn’t perfect. Not for her, but…

[Head][Lelutka][Stella Mesh Head (v1.6)]
[Skin][^^Swallow^^][Sabry (Peach) w/ Georgie Lelutka Applier]
[Body][Slink][Slink Physique (v2.8)]
[Hands][Slink][AvEnhance Hands (Elegant)]
[Eyes][IKON][Triumph Eyes (Evening)]
[Hair][TRUTH][Debra(Ginger Pack)]
[Sweater][Pixicat @ Collabor88][Fall Sweater (Cream)]
[Tights][Pixicat @ Collabor88][Fall Tights (Roses)]
[Shoes][F I N E S M I T H (closed)][Leprekon 1 Boots]
[Pose][{Rose & Thorn} Poses][Missing You]
[Location][Point Mirabeau Sim]
[Inspiration Tune][Adele – Send My Love (To Your New Lover)]

In the Mood for a Melody


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And the piano, it sounds like a carnival
And the microphone smells like a beer
And they sit at the bar and put bread in my jar
And say, “Man, what are you doin’ here?”

She approached the piano, her heels clicking lightly against the worn wooden floor beneath her feet, and hid a sad smile as she reached out to move her fingers over the old ivory keys, pulling a layer of dust away with her fingertips.

Somewhere behind her, she heard a man’s voice.

“Do you play?” He asked.

She froze there a second, her hand poised in mid-air. Sometimes, she could still hear the music, still remember the way it felt to bring the old instrument to life. It called to her, much like a siren’s song, but she had denied it for so long.

“It still works,” the man added, sounding almost hopeful. “Might need a bit of tuning, though.”

She turned and tilted her head ever-so-slightly in his direction. “I don’t play anymore,” she said.

“But you used to?”

“Yeah,” she said with a soft nod of her head. “Used to. Don’t anymore.”

The silence hung between them a moment, and then she heard him again, posing the one question she’d never been able to answer for herself, much less to anyone else:


[Head][Lelutka][Stella Mesh Head (v1.6)]
[Skin][((=alterego=))][Yasmine (Chai)]
[Body][Slink][Slink Physique (v2.8)]
[Hands][Slink][AvEnhance Hands (Casual)]
[Feet][Slink][AvEnhance Feet (High)]
[Lips][Zibska][Frida Lips #12]
[Hair][*Argrace*][Misao (Light Brown)]
[Tattoo][-Endless Pain Tattoos-The Alchemy Event][Julia]
[Dress][[ZanzE]][Sally Dress (Teal)]
[Shoes][Slipper Originals for BUYNOW][Alyx Sandals]
[Pose][Joplino Poses][Caitlyn #5]
[Location][Crestwick Island Sim]
[Inspiration Tune][Billy Joel – Piano Man]

Such a Beautiful Disaster…




And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster?

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The dream had been a nice one while it lasted. She had even smiled in her sleep. But then her hand stretched across the pillow, and her eyelashes fluttered.

She sat up.

A warm ray of morning sunshine was dancing across the wall and filling the room with a soft glow of light, and…

And she was alone. Again.

The dream had been a nice one while it lasted…

[Head][Lelutka][Stella Mesh Head (v1.6)]
[Skin][((=alterego=))][Yasmine (Chai)]
[Body][Slink][Slink Physique (v2.8)]
[Hands][Slink][AvEnhance Hands (Casual)]
[Feet][Slink][AvEnhance Feet (High)]
[Lips][Zibska][Frida Lips #12]
[Hair][*Argrace*][Misao (Light Brown)]
[Tattoo][-Endless Pain Tattoos- @ :{Pretty Things}: (opening Sept 11)][Amy]
[Top (Image 2)][RAPTURE][Molina (Red)]
[Panties][Enertia][Cheeky Panties 2 (w/ color change HUD)]
[Furniture (Image 2)][Kalopsia][Effie’s Studio (Futon, Photo collage, table, candles, rug)]
[Sign (Image 2)][Kalopsia][Neon – Feelings]
[Pose (Image 1)][{Rose & Thorn Poses}][Here Without You]
[Pose (Image 2)][{Rose & Thorn Poses}][Just Like Fire]
[Male Model’s Outfit][Top (GizzA), Jeans and Shoes (Gabriel), Hair (Tableau Vivant)]
[Inspiration Tune][Kelly Clarkson – Beautiful Disaster]