No One Wants to Dig That Deep…

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Welcome to my world of truth.
I don’t wanna hide any part of me from you.
I’m standing here with no apologies.
Such a beautiful release…

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If You Love Me, Don’t Let Go…

I know you’re trying
To fight when you feel like flying…

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Kiss Me Goodbye, I’m Defying Gravity!

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I’m through with playing by
The rules of someone else’s game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It’s time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes, and leap…

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You’ll Just Have to Wait

Today I don’t feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don’t feel like picking up my phone
So leave a message at the tone
‘Cause today I swear I’m not doing anything
Nothing at all…

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Sing to Me the Song of the Stars…

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There’s a song that’s inside of my soul.
It’s the one that I’ve tried to write
over and over again.
I’m awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over
and over and over again…

Five-hundred-and-three days.

Thirteen hours.

Twenty-seven minutes.

Sixteen seconds.

At first, she hadn’t kept track. The knowledge that he’d be back in her arms was enough. The occasional phone call or letter in the mail sent her heart fluttering, and she knew. She knew that in time, he’d be back. There was no need.

But then the calls stopped.

She had just arrived home from work, had barely enough time to remove her shoes at the door before the car pulled into the driveway. At first, she didn’t realize what it was. At first, she didn’t understand that it was “the car.”

Two men clad in blue exited the vehicle.

It was just after five o’clock on a Tuesday when her world came to a screeching halt.

Five-hundred-and-twenty-three days ago.

Thirteen hours.

Twenty-seven minutes.

Fifty-one… Fifty-two… Fifty-three…

[Shape][Mine]
[Head][Lelutka][Stella Mesh Head (v1.6)]
[Skin][Glam Affair][Alyx (America)]
[Body][Slink][Slink Physique (v2.8)]
[Eyes][IKON][Triumph Eyes (Evening)]
[Hands][Slink][AvEnhance Hands (Casual)]
[Hair][TRUTH Hair][Louisa (Gingers)]
[Tattoo][White Widow][Moonlight (Black)]
[Dress][Zanze @ .PENUMBRA AW16 FW][Cassie Dress (Black)]
[Pose][Female 07 Pose from Gracefully Wicked “Starlight Bed”]
[Location][La Vie Sim]
[Inspiration Tune][Mandy Moore – Only Hope]

Songs I Can’t Listen To…

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Do you still sing alone
When you’re all by yourself?
Or do you switch to the next one
Sing for somebody else?
When you’re cold don’t forget
How this song kept us warm
You would dance on my bed
I would lay in your arms…

 

He left everything behind when he left her. It wasn’t that he was gone, perhaps because he wasn’t gone at all. It was everything. She could see him and feel him everywhere. The coat he left in the closet that still smelled of him, especially on cold days… His pillow, still laying untouched beside her own. Every nook and cranny, every shadow, every song that played on the radio was a reminder to her that he had been there once.

He had been there, with a smile brighter than the sun and arms so strong that she always felt safe, warm, and protected. He had been there to celebrate her victories and wipe away her tears.

She’d stopped listening long ago, afraid that one of those songs would play, and her resolve would crack, and the rest off the world would be able to see that she wasn’t as together as she liked to pretend that she was.

She’d never missed anything so much.

Sometimes, if she listened hard enough, she could still hear his voice, softer than a whisper, but as clear as though he was standing right behind her with his lips pressed to her ear.

“Don’t worry,” he’d always say, “I’ll see you again soon.”

 

[Shape][Mine]
[Head][Lelutka][Stella Mesh Head (v1.6)]
[Skin][((=alterego=)) @ .PENUMBRA AW16 FW][Runa (Chai)]
[Body][Slink][Slink Physique (v2.8)]
[Eyes][IKON][Triumph Eyes (Evening)]
[Hands][Slink][AvEnhance Hands (Casual)]
[Hair][*Argrace*][Azami (Light Brown)]
[Outfit][PRISM @ .PENUMBRA AW16 FW][Andi Warm Flannels Set by Journey (w/HUD)]
[Shoes][Glam Affair @ UBER][Marshall Peeptoe Ankle Boots (Harbor Blue)]
[Pose][Del May][Hand Kiss]
[Location][Paris Je T’aime Sim]
[Inspiration Tune][Neon Trees – Songs I Can’t Listen To]

Let Go of All of Our Ghosts…

 

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I’ve given you up
I’ve forgiven it all.
You set me free.

Long ago, sometime between “It’s not you, it’s me,” and “Would you like to meet us for coffee?” she had forgiven him. She had taken a deep breath, turned her back, and walked away. No. Ran. It was hard, giving up what had been her first love…what her heart had convinced her would be the truest and deepest love that she would ever feel. She hadn’t fallen for him. It was more like a running leap off of a tall building, speeding toward the ground with no parachute and not even caring about what would happen when they reached the ground.

He was beautiful and brash and everything that she wasn’t. A smile took her breath away. His laugh was infectious. Everything about him seemed so damn perfect.

Until she realized that it wasn’t. That he wasn’t.

She sighed as she looked out the window, watching them leave. Her coffee still waited on the table, practically untouched throughout the duration of their impromtu get-together. He walked away with his fingers laced with his new lover’s, and she watched them and found herself smiling.

He wasn’t perfect. Not for her, but…

[Shape][Mine]
[Head][Lelutka][Stella Mesh Head (v1.6)]
[Skin][^^Swallow^^][Sabry (Peach) w/ Georgie Lelutka Applier]
[Body][Slink][Slink Physique (v2.8)]
[Hands][Slink][AvEnhance Hands (Elegant)]
[Eyes][IKON][Triumph Eyes (Evening)]
[Hair][TRUTH][Debra(Ginger Pack)]
[Sweater][Pixicat @ Collabor88][Fall Sweater (Cream)]
[Tights][Pixicat @ Collabor88][Fall Tights (Roses)]
[Shoes][F I N E S M I T H (closed)][Leprekon 1 Boots]
[Pose][{Rose & Thorn} Poses][Missing You]
[Location][Point Mirabeau Sim]
[Inspiration Tune][Adele – Send My Love (To Your New Lover)]