But if you loved me
why’d you leave me?
Take my body.
Take my body…
There was nothing worse, she knew, than reaching out in the middle of the night to find nothing but the pillow waiting for her. It was almost as bad as waking up in the mornings to find that the other side of the bed was undisturbed. Sometimes, when she was feeling particularly lonely, she’d stretch across the whole thing and rest her head on his side, because sometimes, if she breathed in deeply enough, she could still catch the scent of his cologne on the pillow next to hers.
She thought she’d be prepared when it was time. She thought that when he said, “I’ll see you again soon,” she would be ready and willing to nod and smile. To offer a soft-spoken, “Of course you will.” But the end came quick, and it hit like a train at full speed. Only then did she realize that she wasn’t ready. That she’d never be ready.
She had prayed in the weeks and months before. First for a speedy recovery, then a miracle. And then, as he clutched her hand, Death rattling in his throat, for a moment, she’d actually prayed…begged…to take his place. Without him, she reasoned, a part of her would die anyway. It wouldn’t be too difficult a trade.
But then the rattling stopped, and the room fell silent, and some time later, after a talk with the doctor and countless heartbreaking phone conversations, she’d returned home and collapsed into a bed that she knew, deep down, would never feel right again without him to share it with.
[Hands][Slink][AvEnhance Hands (Elegant)]
[Eyes]IKON][Sunrise Eyes (Azure Light)]
[Lashes][*Mon Cheri*][Falsies – Mesh Lashes]
[Face][Madrid Solo][Hustle (Blush, Moles, Freckles)]
[Lips][Zibska][Plias Lips #5]
[Eyeshadow][Madrid Solo][“Seductress” Soil Umber]
[Hair][*ARGRACE*][Akane – Light Brown]
[Top and Panties][[Cynful] Clothing and Co.][Bring the Sexy Back]
[Inspiration Tune][Kodaline – All I Want]